I can move mountains, I can work a miracle [OPEN]

[rassera]

WHO: The residents of Nonah 05 + YOU!
WHERE: Nonah, Residence #005
WHEN: All month long (January)
WHAT: Nonah 05 open log for January Shenanigans
WARNINGS: Obligatory Bull and Tetsuo warnings apply.


Starters will be appearing in the comments. If you want something specific from any one person (Kaneda rassera, Tetsuo iamtetsuo, Bull rideme and Ken amadaman), feel free to drop them a line and ask! Otherwise, feel free to add your own starters for the whole household or individual residents as you like.

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[iamtetsuo]

[Their places were reversed, not too long ago, and Tetsuo let the bitterness consume him.

It'd been a few years, maybe, since the mere sight of Kaneda didn't send him into a rage deep down. Everything was always better without him!

Or so he'd thought. It'd taken actually getting tossed to the curb and traded out for someone better to drive the point home, leaving him crying and screaming internally at the world on the bed, fury and loathing wrapping themselves down to the core of his being, and not even understanding why it bothered him so much.

It took dying to get Kaneda to give a damn again.

He could only imagine how it must feel for Amada now. In fact, he'd been counting on it; that small part of him left with enough fire to find vengeful thoughts looked back on it with a dark satisfaction. Suck it. And, another part with extreme trepidation. What was he going to do...?

Kaneda's not here. But would it really change anything if he was? He never stopped the kid from trying to kill him before. If it'd been him instead of Pan who did it, would Kaneda still give a shit? Lost in his own racing mind, Tetsuo misses the fact Amada's trembling, but it's impossible to miss the shiver in his voice. The first real clue that something is still off about all this, and he still can't find what.

The longer Amada talks, the more blankly confused Tetsuo looks. It's just like with the candy when he ran away, just like with the mug before, and that bowl. He can't even begin to understand that position, too mired in his own worldview.]

...what?

[He matches quiet anxiety with quiet disbelief.]

[amadaman]

[Tetsuo coming back was a good thing. It was the right thing. It was what they had all fought for since September, what they agreed to help Kaneda with as things got worse and worse. Ken doesn't remember when it occurred to him, but it wasn't just recently that he realized Tetsuo's return may be the end of his time in Nonah. Once Tetsuo gained a home, he would lose his own.

He told himself he would be okay with that, too.

He wasn't, but it was still a choice he made. Tetsuo and Kaneda cannot go back anymore, but they could gain something here. They could gain the thing that Ken had been given the chance to seek, and he wanted to give them that same chance, too. No matter how much it hurt. No matter how many times Tetsuo hurt him. Even if it meant giving up the first place he called home since his mother's death.

This fight has been for Kaneda, and it will always have been for Kaneda.]

He was hurting, the whole time you were gone. No matter what happened, his thoughts always went back to you.

[He closes his eyes and shakes his head.]

With you back, that hole in him might finally close again.

[iamtetsuo]

[It's funny, really, how he never wanted to hear that until he learned it was gone forever. Maybe had been for ages.

He can't look at the kid suddenly, eyes narrowing at the carpet, picking out nonexistent shapes from the shadows cast by fibers. It's what he wants to believe now, which is why that cannot be the truth; life's not that generous. Kaneda even told him, head buried in his hair, ruffling it with every shaky breath, that he'd needed him all along. Called him his brother.

Soaking Kaneda's shoulder with tears, Tetsuo accepted it. The fear of losing whatever he had left was too strong.

But with Ken Amada come other memories, dug into his mind like splinters. It wasn't Tetsuo's defense that Kaneda came to. Which was fine, he hadn't needed it, he lived.

Until Kaneda came to Amada's instead.

Suddenly, the doubt's weaving itself back into his mind, seeping poison into anything until he's left miserable and painfully unable to hide his shame. Tetsuo doesn't seem aware he's retreating back to older behavior patterns, shifting uneasily as he listens.]

Don't.

[He won't deny, now, that he thought about Kaneda a lot. He would deny he thought about him more than he had Kaori, but there was truth to that statement as well. Even then; it was one sided. He'd been so sure that when Kaneda said they were done... they'd been done.

Not looking back up, he continues in that strange, subdued manner he'd adjusted to. Quiet. Defeated.]

Kaneda never had a problem finding people. It's what he does.

[Except Kaneda didn't find him. Why was that, Amada? If you've got all the answers? ...But Tetsuo doesn't ask that question. He couldn't handle the answer right now, if the kid knows.]