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[fullmetalbrat]

WHO: Edward Elric and YOU
WHERE: Vorkosigan Residence, various libraries and coffee shops, etc
WHEN: Throughout August
WHAT: Catch-all!
WARNINGS: PTSD related nightmares, will update if more arise

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[fullmetalbrat]

... At least I've got you here. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't.

[heart_wrenching]

Me too.



That time, right before the porter took us, "Promised Day." I thought I'd never see you again.

[fullmetalbrat]

[Oh.

He tightens his arm around her.]

I... Me too. Even after— I was afraid of that until I saw you here.

[heart_wrenching]

. . .



You can cry about it, if it hurts to much. There's nowhere you have to be walking to now, you know?

[fullmetalbrat]

[He laughs; a little too thick to be just amusement.]

So he can make fun of me when he gets here?

[heart_wrenching]

[ . . . ]

[fullmetalbrat]

... I can't cry about that. Not when there's still a chance he'll come here. Or we'll go home.

I just miss him anyway.

[heart_wrenching]

Mm.

[fullmetalbrat]

[He huffs softly.]

...Sorry. You must miss him too.

[heart_wrenching]

Sure, but... I know it's not the same.

[fullmetalbrat]

Why the hell would it be? It still matters.

[heart_wrenching]

We're talking about you, Ed.

[fullmetalbrat]

That means we can't talk about you too?

[heart_wrenching]

No, but I'm used to missing Al.

[fullmetalbrat]

...Oh.

[heart_wrenching]

Not- not like that, I just mean, you've been relying on just each other for a long time.

[fullmetalbrat]

Well—yeah... But you figured out how to deal with it. I just...need to do that too.

[heart_wrenching]

I don't think you can make that happen, Ed. I think it just does. And until it does, it hurts.

[fullmetalbrat]

[He got used to missing his mom! ...But he's not going to say that or even give the thought any real weight. It's too different; too serious and permanent.]

Ugh... I'm tired of this part.

[heart_wrenching]

I know.

[fullmetalbrat]

...I'm glad I've got you here.