The rabbits running in the ditch. Oh no, must be the season...

[hostage]

WHO: Jesse Pinkman, Daisy Johnson & Sarah Manning
WHERE: The Murder Cabin
WHEN: Late July - Early August
WHAT: Various goings-on at the creepy cabin in the woods over the past few weeks.
WARNINGS: Drugs, withdrawal, mentions of suicide, complicated relationships, probably violence, maybe sex.
NOTES: It's a mingle log. Start your own threads!!

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Jesse & Daisy

[hostage]

[The cabin may be supplied with enough provisions to last several months, but Jesse was sick of eating canned chili after about three days. Now that they're over a week into their stay in the wilderness, he decides to do something about it.

It's around dawn when he heads out to the garden, while Daisy's asleep and the grass is coated in dew. He works through the morning, clearing away weeds and dry leaves, discarding rotten produce and picking through what's left to make a decent meal. He'll turn over the soil later, get the garden back in working order. This simple clean-up takes him a couple of hours as it is.

When he finally returns to the cabin, he's covered in dirt and carrying a large basket of lettuce, tomatoes, radishes, berries, and peaches. Jesse moves as quietly as he can, in case Daisy's still sleeping, while he gets to washing up at the kitchen sink.]

[morethan084]

[While he's sick of it, she isn't yet. Probably because she hasn't nearly as much as she should be to begin with. The first half of the week here, Daisy slept more than she was awake, and when she was awake most of it was just spent in the bed anyway.

With nothing to otherwise occupy her mind, it was hard to not fall into a deep dark pit of depression. At least when she was on the run from SHIELD she didn't have the time to really sit and think about everything she had done wrong. How Lincoln was never coming back and it was because of her, no matter what anyone else said, she couldn't see how it wasn't her fault.

She's awake when Jesse comes back in the house, despite his best efforts to be quiet. Laying in bed a bit longer, trying to ignore the fact that her throat is unbelievably dry, she finally gets out of bed and moves down to the kitchen. She notices him first, his back to her and he's completely covered in dirt. Noticing the basket soon after, Daisy breaks the silence:]

I don't think I've ever seen you eat a fruit or vegetable in my life.

[hostage]

Desperate times.

[He glances over his shoulder, giving Daisy a small smile.]

It doesn't really matter what I eat. But I was thinking you could use something fresh. You'd be amazed, actually, what it does for you. You know, brain chemistry-wise. I saw this thing on the Discovery Channel once where this dude like totally cured his depression and like got sober just from eating raw vegetables.

[Though Jesse gives a light shrug, because he doesn't expect to see anything quite so dramatic happen after a single salad. He goes back to scrubbing the vegetables clean.]

[morethan084]

[It's not shocking that he was pointing out that she was depressed, it was pretty damn obvious she was. It just that the conversation didn't sit well with her. She didn't want to be cured because there was no cure for this.]

The thought of eating nothing but raw vegetables sounds depressing.

[Oh look, humor. Bad humor.]

[hostage]

[Humor is good! Jesse lets out a soft laugh, looking at her again.]

Okay, yeah. It really does. But so does eating beef jerky for three weeks.

[morethan084]

[Daisy looks away just as he turns to look at her. Finger trailing over the counter, she gave a shrug.]

More along the lines of my diet anyway.

[She knows he's trying, he's been trying. Daisy also knows she hasn't been making it easy on him, but that's because she isn't allowing herself to think she deserves any of this. Even now when he's trying to do everything in his power to make her feel otherwise.]

I hope you didn't spend the morning just doing this for my sake.

[hostage]

[Jesse's endlessly patient. And he knows what it's like. He knows this isn't something people just get over. It's going to take time and healing, and he'll be here for her whether she likes it or not.]

What else do I got going on? Besides, I like gardening. Actually.

[morethan084]

You mean besides putting up with me?

[So much for the humor, now back to the regularly scheduled self-deprecating.]

[hostage]

I like putting up with you. But you were sleeping, so this was the next-best thing.

[He won't be defeated.]

[morethan084]

That's all I do anyway. You really should go back to Ellie and Joel.

[Forcing herself to move, Daisy moves past him to grab a glass for the water, waiting until he's done with the tap to use it to fill her glass. The whole time she's not looking at him. Sometimes it's easier, to pretend he isn't there. Other times it's easier to realize that he is, right now it was the former.]

[hostage]

Don't worry about Ellie and Joel. They're fine without me.

[Okay, not really. Joel probably wants to kill him by now. But neither of them are in mortal danger, whereas Jesse has no honest idea how badly Daisy might hurt herself if he leaves her for a single day. He'd tried to kill himself after Jane died, before he was institutionalized. For all he knows, Daisy's in the same frame of mind.]

[morethan084]

That isn't what you told me a few weeks ago.

[She isn't trying to start an argument, she's just trying to call him out on his lie.

Filling her glass, Daisy chugged the glass down before filling it again.]

[hostage]

[It wasn't a lie. Christ, all she ever does is go straight for the heart.]

They wanted time alone, they're getting time alone.

Jesse & Sarah

[hostage]

[After one unfortunately-timed booty call, Jesse rushes out of the cabin and hurries to his car. It's late enough that Daisy ought to be asleep, or else she's hiding out in her room and avoiding him anyway. She might not even notice he'll be gone for the next hour or so. But he left a note on the fridge, just in case: BACK SOON. - J

Twenty minutes later, he's pulling up outside Sarah's place. He has no intention of taking her up on the offer, not now, but he knows she must be in a terrible state if she's asking. And maybe it's too much for Jesse to take care of both of his girls at the same time, but by god, he'll try.

He taps the horn lightly to let her know he's waiting.]

[coppelganger]

[ Sarah's been waiting for him, and she comes outside as soon as she hears him pull up. Forget trying not to look desperate. She doesn't care anymore. She walks to the car and slips into the passenger seat without any stumbling, but Jesse will be able to tell when he looks at her that she's on something. It's in her eyes, the way they take longer than usual to track him, and the too-easy way she smiles at him. ]

Hey. Thanks for picking me up.

[hostage]

[Yeah, of course he can tell. Jesse reaches over to brush back her hair and caress her cheek. A comforting gesture, despite the fact that she's smiling.]

Is it okay if we go someplace, um... a little far out there? It's a safehouse of mine. I'm guarding somebody there and I wasn't supposed to leave.

[But clearly Sarah needed him.]

[coppelganger]

We can go wherever you want.

[ Not like she has anyone waiting up for her, anymore. Well, except for Chloe, but she's an adult. She can handle a night alone. ]

[hostage]

Great, awesome.

[That was easy. And after a porter trip and a drive through the deep dark woods, they're pulling up to the cabin. The only light that's on is the porch, which means Daisy's probably still sleeping. That's good news to Jesse as he gets out of the car and leads the way to the door.]

[coppelganger]

Who else is here, then?

[ Sarah follows him to the door, her voice low to keep from waking whoever it is. ]

[hostage]

Daisy.

[No sense in keeping it secret when they might run into each other.]

She's, um... She's been having a rough time with things. I just been looking out for her while she gets better.

[Which, Sarah might gather, is also his intention with her. Since Daisy's sleeping upstairs, Jesse leads Sarah to the bedroom on the ground floor and turns on the light. The decor's spartan, but it's comfortable enough, should Sarah decide to stay over. Once they're both in the room, he locks the door behind them.]

[coppelganger]

Nice of you.

[ Sarah has gotten the impression that Jesse isn't as into the hookup as he'd seemed over text, but when he locks the door behind them, she can't help but take it as a good sign. Even if his girlfriend (or... whatever she is; Sarah can barely keep a handle on her own relationships, much less everyone else's) is asleep upstairs. ]

[hostage]

She's my ex.

[To answer the unspoken question and just get it all out there. Sarah's right: He's not into this hookup. It's an awful time and an awful place. Not that it means he'll deny her.]

[coppelganger]

[ Sarah tugs Jesse toward the bed and stumbles back onto it as she does. ]

Will she be pissed you brought me here?

[hostage]

[Jesse goes where Sarah leads, not quite stumbling onto the bed but sliding down with her so he's bent over her when she lands, propped up by one arm and looking down at her face. He's missed her. He's missed being with her.]

Maybe. But it's my house, not hers.

[And Jesse can't play favorites when his loved ones are in distress.]

[coppelganger]

[ Sarah lifts her head to kiss him, but something stops her before she can actually make contact. It feels like she's cheating, is the thing. She'd love to be able to turn off that part of her brain, at least for tonight, but even high, she can't switch off the guilt. She closes her eyes and lets her head drop back onto the mattress. ]

I— [ Except she doesn't know what to say after that, either. ]