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maskormenacelogs2016-02-26 06:19 pm
moneyballer) wrote in maskormenacelogs2016-02-26 06:19 pm
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Backdated to Feb 14th
WHO: Asher Millstone and Billy Kaplan
WHERE: One of the many bars in Heropa.
WHEN: Backdated to early February.
WHAT: Alcohol is not a very good friend.
WARNINGS: Mentions of alcohol abuse, sad thoughts, etc.!
[Asher has finally managed to get himself moving, but only a few steps.
He sits outside the bar, twiddling his thumbs and staring at the ground, wondering if this really was a good idea at all. While it's nice to know that there's someone out there who hopes that he won't drink himself into oblivion, he has a stinking suspicion that Billy is only doing this because he's a decent person.
Hearing someone's footsteps, Asher is snapped out of his pity party momentarily, and nods in the other's direction.]
Yo.
WHERE: One of the many bars in Heropa.
WHEN: Backdated to early February.
WHAT: Alcohol is not a very good friend.
WARNINGS: Mentions of alcohol abuse, sad thoughts, etc.!
[Asher has finally managed to get himself moving, but only a few steps.
He sits outside the bar, twiddling his thumbs and staring at the ground, wondering if this really was a good idea at all. While it's nice to know that there's someone out there who hopes that he won't drink himself into oblivion, he has a stinking suspicion that Billy is only doing this because he's a decent person.
Hearing someone's footsteps, Asher is snapped out of his pity party momentarily, and nods in the other's direction.]
Yo.
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Hey.
[He also knows that Asher is dealing with more than his intense and unrelenting loneliness.]
How many have you had?
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Dude...
[There's a heavy sigh, his chest rises and falls. It's been looking more defined as of late- When you work as a personal trainer, you really have to look the part, no?]
I'm not in the mood for questions right about now. You feel me?
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[He raises both eyebrows, and he just rubs his head.]
That wasn't judgement.
[He doesn't sound judgmental. He doesn't even sound cranky, and Billy usually sounds cranky.]
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[S T O P]
So maybe you like to talk about your feelings, but straight dudes just don't do that-
[It's clear that this is just ruse, Asher is probably one of the sappiest people you could ever meet. In fact, he talks about his feelings often, and a lot! Or at least, he would if it were more socially acceptable.
There are tears stains on his cheek, still. His eyes are red and puffy from crying- Nope, no stoic, macho man here.]
It's been rough, and I gotta get myself out of it. That's it.
[Did he just sniffle?]
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[That comes out a bit cranky.]
You don't have to talk about anything. I just don't think you should be alone.
[And that's punctuated by a point of his finger, right up at Asher's face. Billy's short enough to need to point up to accomplish this.]
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no homo]I- Whatever.
[He doesn't say anything else.
Maybe it's because he's ashamed admit that there's a part of him that's fucking ecstatic about all this- Someone came to see him, and that makes him happy.
How freaking pathetic.]
I'm just pissed about stuff, I guess. Sometimes life is just straight up bull.
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[He shrugs a little, but he knows, too, that it isn't just that simple.]
I'm not saying you can't be angry, you know. We're stuck here. A lot of us are alone. That's crap.
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[That comes out quickly, very fast, as if it wasn't thought through. Then again, this is Asher... He doesn't really do that.]
And like, I'm happy for them. I really am! Relationships that work are ballin', but like...
Ugh. It just gets on my nerves sometimes.
[He's jealous.]
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[Billy has really stopped thinking he'll go home, or that Teddy will come back.]
So it getting on your nerves isn't a problem. That's just-
[He shrugs.]
It blows.
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[Asher squints. If that really is the case, maybe they're in more similar situations than he originally thought.]
That's not gay slang for like... Him just up and bailing on you, is it? Or is he... Is he actually in the Twilight zone or some other freaky-deaky buisiness?
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[You know, since neither of them are from around here, as it were.]
Not the Twilight Zone. But basically, it doesn't feel like I'll ever go home, so-
[He shrugs.]
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[Asher is glaringly obvious in nearly every way, as he isn't particularly good at concealing what he's really thinking, and it shows in his face. There is that look of realization, a somewhat pointed stare followed by a quick glance downward, before he asks:]
Do you think you're in love with him?
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[Billy doesn't think this should be about him, but none of these are secrets.]
But this isn't even a long distance relationship. He told me to move on, when he left here.
SORRY THIS IS SO LATE I AM STILL GAME
Maybe he should tell the truth.]
Yeah, that's some b-friggin'-s, yo.
[Watching other people make the same mistakes... It's one of the best ways to learn something.]
If you love somebody that much, movin' on isn't gonna be easy. But, dude!
[And at this moment, Asher grabs the other's shoulders.]
You gotta live your life, dawg! If he's not comin' back, he's not comin' back.
Is there anything else that makes you happy? Maybe not just as happy, but happy.
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[Billy just looks at Asher.]
That's really...very passionate.
[Read: surprising.]
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W-what?
A guy can't give one of his bros a pep talk?
[For a moment, he wondered if Billy has figured it out- That speech he gave, just now...
It was more to himself than anyone else, really.]
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[He is pretty sure that this guy is talking to himself anyway.]