[He stays like that for awhile, letting the last of those tears pour out of him, ones that might've been years old, waiting for the right time to cry. Later, Kaneda was often what he told himself. He just didn't think 'later' would come so soon.
But he's not alone. Maya's held onto him this whole time, listened to him scream without any complaint, let him use her shoulder to bury his face in when he didn't want the world to see. Gave him a place to hide until he could come out of this. The physical contact felt nice, her hand idly running circles on his back, moving up to where his hair meets his neckline and soaking in every inch of that feeling. For once, he was the one being held.
They remain there until his breathing regulates, feeling oxygen once again flowing through his lungs at a pace his body could be happy with, slowly pulling away from that shoulder. He looks about as one could expect, tears staining his face and eyes puffy. Grief's still overtaken him, he's not okay, and won't be until he sorts this out...Everything Kaneda was, the confidence, the unshakable strength, his integrity and morals, all of that was at it's weakest now.
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But he's not alone. Maya's held onto him this whole time, listened to him scream without any complaint, let him use her shoulder to bury his face in when he didn't want the world to see. Gave him a place to hide until he could come out of this. The physical contact felt nice, her hand idly running circles on his back, moving up to where his hair meets his neckline and soaking in every inch of that feeling. For once, he was the one being held.
They remain there until his breathing regulates, feeling oxygen once again flowing through his lungs at a pace his body could be happy with, slowly pulling away from that shoulder. He looks about as one could expect, tears staining his face and eyes puffy. Grief's still overtaken him, he's not okay, and won't be until he sorts this out...Everything Kaneda was, the confidence, the unshakable strength, his integrity and morals, all of that was at it's weakest now.
And Maya holds all of him right now in her arms.]
I'm sorry.
[That one was to her.]