[ it would be hard not to know; a ghoul's skin can't be pierced with normal tools, so the doctor would need something to open Rize. And ghouls have different organs inside, and Kanou would certainly realize Rize wasn't human and he transfered a non human body into Ken.
Kaneki was so naive not to realize it.
However, Kaneki does not consider his "pure-self" (as he calls the Kaneki he left behind, the human one) strong. he considers him rather weak, because Kaneki WAS weak. he was shoved into an unknown world and had to learn how to deal, but there was so much he refused to deal with and that was his downfall. The starvation, dancing around with his hunger, all of it happened because Kaneki was too weak to accept that he had to eat regardless of his feelings about that matter.
There is much else, too. Too many painful things.
Kaneki was weak.
he is no longer weak, though.
At Josuke words he nods though ] I still have access to the bodies provided by the government. I will feed on those.
And I know that you are. And I know it's unfair to push you away. And I know I need you, and I can't do everything alone. [ he knows that. it took one of his friends beating him up for him to see it. ] I want to protect everyone. You, Annie, Hide, Touka, Reiner - I don't want anyone to die anymore and I don't want anyone to be hurt anymore. And for a while [ half year ] I took it all by myself, everyone's pain and what weighted them, while I pushed them all away, trying not to drag them into this.
I don't think i was right. ... [ he trails off. kaneki is looking at his hands, his black fingernails deformed by continuous torture. Inside his head he hears so many voices - Rize's, Yamori's... - and he hears something eating him away from the inside. He knows it's not really happening, but Kaneki idly reaches for his ear, and just for a second, it's as if his fingers are trying to pull something out of it, even though nothing comes.
His focus returns just as fast, as if he hadn't stopped at all ] I think i did a lot of things wrong, but now I know, I don't have to push everyone away like that. [ it doesn't mean he will tell everything, but he won't be disappearing, like he did back home ]
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Kaneki was so naive not to realize it.
However, Kaneki does not consider his "pure-self" (as he calls the Kaneki he left behind, the human one) strong. he considers him rather weak, because Kaneki WAS weak. he was shoved into an unknown world and had to learn how to deal, but there was so much he refused to deal with and that was his downfall. The starvation, dancing around with his hunger, all of it happened because Kaneki was too weak to accept that he had to eat regardless of his feelings about that matter.
There is much else, too. Too many painful things.
Kaneki was weak.
he is no longer weak, though.
At Josuke words he nods though ] I still have access to the bodies provided by the government. I will feed on those.
And I know that you are. And I know it's unfair to push you away. And I know I need you, and I can't do everything alone. [ he knows that. it took one of his friends beating him up for him to see it. ] I want to protect everyone. You, Annie, Hide, Touka, Reiner - I don't want anyone to die anymore and I don't want anyone to be hurt anymore. And for a while [ half year ] I took it all by myself, everyone's pain and what weighted them, while I pushed them all away, trying not to drag them into this.
I don't think i was right. ... [ he trails off. kaneki is looking at his hands, his black fingernails deformed by continuous torture. Inside his head he hears so many voices - Rize's, Yamori's... - and he hears something eating him away from the inside. He knows it's not really happening, but Kaneki idly reaches for his ear, and just for a second, it's as if his fingers are trying to pull something out of it, even though nothing comes.
His focus returns just as fast, as if he hadn't stopped at all ] I think i did a lot of things wrong, but now I know, I don't have to push everyone away like that. [ it doesn't mean he will tell everything, but he won't be disappearing, like he did back home ]