Untamed/MDZS catch-all

[ze_uwu_jun]

WHO: The Untamed / MDZS cast and friends (enemies, etc)
WHERE: Anywhere, everywhere, including their assigned lodgings and around all towns
WHEN: February
WHAT: Catch-all because the emotions never end
WARNINGS: The Untamed / Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation / Mo Dao Zu Shi spoilers; canon-typical violence; event-typical violence. Will add more if it becomes necessary

ooc: Go forth and do the things as they come.

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[snowsparksjr]

Jin Ling blushed at the reassurance, feeling vastly better with the sweetness offered. They were still friends. He hadn't shamed himself beyond forgiveness.

Part of his mind couldn't stop thinking about what he'd done, even though some of the guilt had eased.

He'd wanted to kiss Sizhui. The emotions hadn't been tied into it, there had been no friendship or pride involved. Only desire. And now he had to live with knowing that he felt some amount of desire for Sizhui, even though it was improper and something that he couldn't act upon. That made him feel all the more guilty, knowing that the way he'd come on to Sizhui couldn't entirely be blamed on being without emotions at the time. "You'd better not. Because I'm not giving you up, either. You're stuck with me."

[lanofsizhui]

Thinking the song of healing he plays actually works, he can see the logic and reasoning is returning to him. He sees the spark in his eyes, so he figured Jin Ling is back to himself.

"I want you here. I'm just worried you forgotten about going home. I don't mind this world, but I know where we're all from and I believe we return back home someday." He gave him a playful nudge with his elbow. "So, that's what you're stuck with. I'll make sure we all go back home. Together. I will never let you get lost."

Contemplating further, "So about yesterday. Just forget what happened. No worries."

[snowsparksjr]

"I know we're going home. I haven't forgotten! Even if we don't remember what happens here. I'm a sect leader. I have responsibilities."

Sulking a little, Jin Ling sat up and looked away. He still desperately didn't want to be a Sect Leader. Not for a few more years, at least. When he got home, he would do his best, and he needed to get home as soon as possible. If he was missing back home, if the Jin Clan was in chaos because he was here, he needed to get back and to fix it.

His emotions were too complicated and overwhelming. He didn't know how to deal with them, so he just pushed them to the side and tried to act proud. "I should get going. It's my uncle's birthday. I've got to thank him for taking care of me and apologize for how I was while I was heartless. I'll be back later tonight."

[lanofsizhui]

And that's...that's the main issue. Sizhui knew he'll be a sect leader. He already is and capable, given he just need some experience to lead a clan. Being a Lan, he was taught to rid all desires first, set aside personal interests, and think of protecting the clan as a whole. Sizhui was raised by the twin jades of Lan and knew of the conflict and political hurdles. If they went through it, Jin Ling will think with his desires first, and not with reason and logic.

Resting his hand on the guqin. There's a look of hesitation...and sadness. This time, the pain to the heart is for real, but Sizhui only thinks of his happiness first.

"You're going back to him...? I won't stop you. But please be careful."

[snowsparksjr]

Jin Ling nods, getting to his feet. "I've decided that even though I will never forgive him, I still love him, and that no one but me gets to decide the terms of that love. So, yeah."

Feeling exhausted and lonely, Jin Ling hugs himself. Heading to the door, he glances back at the doorway. He still feels so guilty, and there's a new side to his loneliness that he doesn't want to think about too much. "I'll be back in a few hours. I'll text you if I'm gonna be late."