[He listens and feels. Something. It's a twisting sensation in his chest. The same one when Lucifer and he were arguing. It's uncomfortable like he did a bad thing. Device - unlike some - (Aziraphale and Crowley) had treated him with respect since arriving.
So. This feeling. Sitting and studying her he actually looks - and any human could tell. Regretful.
Folding his hands in his lap he studies her before weighing the words. And this feeling. It's uncomfortable. What do you do with this? Humans live like this? She made them to live like this?
IF she did, it had a purpose. You alleviate this. He had started to feel this way when she had mentioned that she had suffered and so-]
I'm sorry.
[It alleviates. By a hair.]
I can't give that time back but I would argue that human beings should take advantage of the time they have evne if there is no deadline. Yes it is suffering and it hurts.
[His chest tightened again.]
Okay. I don't know if it hurts. I really don't. I...have absolutely no frame of mind to think of that because I would...regret losing this corporation? But it wouldn't destroy me. The only thing that would do that would be someone actively trying to kill me. And to do that it would require hellfire.
[That same painful feeling is still there. It hasn't gone. He tried to kill Aziraphale. She doesn't know that. Darn. He stares at her.]
...I want to ask you what it's like to be afraid like that but I have a feeling that won't go over well. It seems rude anyway. So instead.
[He stares at his feet.]
I am sorry. I am truly sorry that we did that. I hope that you got to do many things however and now that it's...averted perhaps you will get to do many more.
[The sorry is genuine. The rest of it. He feels bad about this. And his first instinct is to ask Aziraphale about it.]
I know what it's like to live under a purpose. Mine's just - neverending. I don't know what it's like for humans. I would think it would be comforting.
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So. This feeling. Sitting and studying her he actually looks - and any human could tell. Regretful.
Folding his hands in his lap he studies her before weighing the words. And this feeling. It's uncomfortable. What do you do with this? Humans live like this? She made them to live like this?
IF she did, it had a purpose. You alleviate this. He had started to feel this way when she had mentioned that she had suffered and so-]
I'm sorry.
[It alleviates. By a hair.]
I can't give that time back but I would argue that human beings should take advantage of the time they have evne if there is no deadline. Yes it is suffering and it hurts.
[His chest tightened again.]
Okay. I don't know if it hurts. I really don't. I...have absolutely no frame of mind to think of that because I would...regret losing this corporation? But it wouldn't destroy me. The only thing that would do that would be someone actively trying to kill me. And to do that it would require hellfire.
[That same painful feeling is still there. It hasn't gone. He tried to kill Aziraphale. She doesn't know that. Darn. He stares at her.]
...I want to ask you what it's like to be afraid like that but I have a feeling that won't go over well. It seems rude anyway. So instead.
[He stares at his feet.]
I am sorry. I am truly sorry that we did that. I hope that you got to do many things however and now that it's...averted perhaps you will get to do many more.
[The sorry is genuine. The rest of it. He feels bad about this. And his first instinct is to ask Aziraphale about it.]
I know what it's like to live under a purpose. Mine's just - neverending. I don't know what it's like for humans. I would think it would be comforting.