[the touch on kavinsky's chin makes him feel slightly incredulous. no one touches him that way. touched him that way. but he was born again out of chilton's psychiatric womb so it's okay, just like wanting to be recognized and valued and loved is okay, and protecting yourself by caring less about others than they care about you is merely pragmatic.
he lets murphy turn his head, so that murphy can think he's winning. he's silent for a long moment, so that murphy can think he's struggling. he looks at murphy straight in the eye, so murphy can think he's telling the truth when he says,]
'M sorry too.
[he's lying, but why not? the next time murphy hurts him, they'll probably be over. or maybe he'll lose his weird psycho rehabbed mind and hurt him first. it's just something to say before the next bad thing happens. the prod of murphy's chin on his shoulder is oddly comforting. he touches a hand on spaceboy's stomach.] Kiss who you want, [he says. but it's suggestive. he walks his head slightly closer,cheek sliding across blanket. so close that murphy can see a miniature reflection in kavinsky's eyewater.] Stay if you want.
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he lets murphy turn his head, so that murphy can think he's winning. he's silent for a long moment, so that murphy can think he's struggling. he looks at murphy straight in the eye, so murphy can think he's telling the truth when he says,]
'M sorry too.
[he's lying, but why not? the next time murphy hurts him, they'll probably be over. or maybe he'll lose his weird psycho rehabbed mind and hurt him first. it's just something to say before the next bad thing happens. the prod of murphy's chin on his shoulder is oddly comforting. he touches a hand on spaceboy's stomach.] Kiss who you want, [he says. but it's suggestive. he walks his head slightly closer,cheek sliding across blanket. so close that murphy can see a miniature reflection in kavinsky's eyewater.] Stay if you want.