"Not necessarily. Sometimes people get really pissed off about the past and make a magical palace to lock themselves away from the world. Because funnily enough, most people don't particularly like acknowledging that side of themselves and try to attack anyone stupid enough who comes to rescue them."

He doesn't expect Sherlock to understand anything he just said, but it's an ordeal that has stuck with John over years. A cautionary tale of what happens when he tries to bury his emotions instead of accepting them for what they are and embracing them. Sadly, it was a lesson that didn't return to London with him and he looks down at his knuckles.

"What I'm saying is that stuff like this just happens. You didn't nearly kill me. I tried to kill myself to save you. If you think about it, it's the same thing you tried to do for me. I'm starting to think you're a bad influence on me."