[there's no 'san' in her name, nothing close, but Lapis is so caught up in her own whirlwind that she doesn't even bother trying to correct him. it was as much of a losing battle as everything else, albeit on a much smaller scale.]

Everyone is always telling me that, like it's supposed to flip some kind of magic switch just like that. It doesn't change anything!

[she wants so terribly to lash out at something, but even at her most tempestuous she retains common sense - there's nothing here that's at fault for the way she feels, no destruction that would fill this angry hole clawing through her chest. it was always that way, and always the most frustrating part of these broken moments. nothing she could do would ever help herself.

even so, Lapis' posture reads trembling and failed restraint. this is something that she's allowed to bubble within for longer than even she can tell, and now that it's risen to the surface she's can't stop the flood of rage pouring from her mouth.]

Losing is losing! You can say whatever lies you need to be able to swallow it, but don't pretend that it's anything else.

[a prison could be tolerable if you were in control of its parameters; this was something which Lapis knew better than anyone else. but to allow those illusions to spread into reality and injure someone...it was unacceptable.]