[ What a weird picture they must make, Hinami thinks, as she moves to mirror the way Kidou is sitting. Two kids sitting on a roof they shouldn't have been able to get onto, looking tired and sad. She's pretty sure her face is probably a blotchy mess. ]
I'm scared I'll forget her sometimes. Or Papa. Someone once told me...for me to turn out, as a Ghoul, the way I am must mean I've been loved and protected. And it's true. I'm really lucky. Almost every Ghoul I know lost their parents when they were younger than me...that's just how it is, with humans and ghouls fighting the way we do.
[ She was different from Ghouls in so very many ways, and even after both of her parents were gone...their entire group had worked hard to keep her sheltered and protected. ]
I could never go to school, it wasn't safe. So she taught me to read and write all by herself. She'd make my clothes by hand. She was so kind, she never wanted to hurt anyone...she didn't deserve...
They turned her into a weapon, her and Papa. [ She needs to make him understand, it feels a little bit like. Maybe the Investigators have reason for the these they do, but-- Ghouls have theirs too, and maybe Kidou is the only person who can be logical enough to set aside emotion and see that too. Or maybe it's just to get it off her own chest, with all these feelings welling up and trying to push their way out. ] If they were going to find me and kill me too, I think I was okay with that, in a way. If I could be with my parents again, then...if I really didn't have any right to exist... But that man...that's what the Investigators do. They take our kagunes and they use them to kill us. He had both Mama and Papa, and it was...
I try to remember the good things, but sometimes that's all I can remember too.
[ Kagunes are incredibly personal to Ghouls, rarely even pulled out outside of fighting. Seeing her parents' used had been like watching their corpses be used. Hinami wipes at her eyes, already a painful red. ]
When I saw her in the school...all I could think was that she came back because she hated me for letting her die. Or she hated me for not killing that man when I had the chance. For not getting revenge for her and Papa when he was right there to let me do it. But I didn't want to get revenge. I wasn't angry, I was just...sad.
[ Because Kidou's thought before was right: Between humans and Ghouls, it's a never ending cycle, one of hatred and revenge. Investigator kills Ghoul for killing their loved one, Ghoul's loved ones kill Investigators in revenge, and it just keeps going. ]
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I'm scared I'll forget her sometimes. Or Papa. Someone once told me...for me to turn out, as a Ghoul, the way I am must mean I've been loved and protected. And it's true. I'm really lucky. Almost every Ghoul I know lost their parents when they were younger than me...that's just how it is, with humans and ghouls fighting the way we do.
[ She was different from Ghouls in so very many ways, and even after both of her parents were gone...their entire group had worked hard to keep her sheltered and protected. ]
I could never go to school, it wasn't safe. So she taught me to read and write all by herself. She'd make my clothes by hand. She was so kind, she never wanted to hurt anyone...she didn't deserve...
They turned her into a weapon, her and Papa. [ She needs to make him understand, it feels a little bit like. Maybe the Investigators have reason for the these they do, but-- Ghouls have theirs too, and maybe Kidou is the only person who can be logical enough to set aside emotion and see that too. Or maybe it's just to get it off her own chest, with all these feelings welling up and trying to push their way out. ] If they were going to find me and kill me too, I think I was okay with that, in a way. If I could be with my parents again, then...if I really didn't have any right to exist... But that man...that's what the Investigators do. They take our kagunes and they use them to kill us. He had both Mama and Papa, and it was...
I try to remember the good things, but sometimes that's all I can remember too.
[ Kagunes are incredibly personal to Ghouls, rarely even pulled out outside of fighting. Seeing her parents' used had been like watching their corpses be used. Hinami wipes at her eyes, already a painful red. ]
When I saw her in the school...all I could think was that she came back because she hated me for letting her die. Or she hated me for not killing that man when I had the chance. For not getting revenge for her and Papa when he was right there to let me do it. But I didn't want to get revenge. I wasn't angry, I was just...sad.
[ Because Kidou's thought before was right: Between humans and Ghouls, it's a never ending cycle, one of hatred and revenge. Investigator kills Ghoul for killing their loved one, Ghoul's loved ones kill Investigators in revenge, and it just keeps going. ]