I mean - of course I feel guilty about it. It didn't have to happen that way. I'm pretty sure the running theme is just dead people, but... let's just say my grandma's ghost hasn't popped up yet.
[ Maybe Laurie's right. Maybe it is about guilt. Between Eddie, the Negotiator and Nadia popping up, he's starting to realize that the things and people he feels guilty about keep adding up, and so do his fears for the future. It's not a comfortable feeling, but one that he doesn't think is too foreign for anyone in the hero biz.
It's easier being the one to leave than it is to be the one left behind, but only if you don't come back to life to realize exactly what you've lost. Then, everything sucks, for everyone. Jaime knows that in the moments he had accepted his own death - plugged into a self-destructing spaceship, hurtling down from space with nothing to protect him from dying on impact - he had felt nothing but an odd, distilled sense of peace and purpose, like this is the way it was supposed to work, in the end. He felt remorse over those he'd left behind, at least, but being on the precipice of death?
He doesn't want to die, not at all, but it hadn't been so bad. ]
I won't say it's not hard, Laurie. But...
[ Back home, he's not happy. He saw himself from the future, the Titans are flagging underneath the weight of their own responsibility, he was attacked at home and whisked away to a battle bigger than he thinks that any of them can cope with, but that - that's external stuff, right? Here, he can still be happy, right? ]
I think in the end, we can be happy, and move on. That's what you want, isn't it?
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[ Maybe Laurie's right. Maybe it is about guilt. Between Eddie, the Negotiator and Nadia popping up, he's starting to realize that the things and people he feels guilty about keep adding up, and so do his fears for the future. It's not a comfortable feeling, but one that he doesn't think is too foreign for anyone in the hero biz.
It's easier being the one to leave than it is to be the one left behind, but only if you don't come back to life to realize exactly what you've lost. Then, everything sucks, for everyone. Jaime knows that in the moments he had accepted his own death - plugged into a self-destructing spaceship, hurtling down from space with nothing to protect him from dying on impact - he had felt nothing but an odd, distilled sense of peace and purpose, like this is the way it was supposed to work, in the end. He felt remorse over those he'd left behind, at least, but being on the precipice of death?
He doesn't want to die, not at all, but it hadn't been so bad. ]
I won't say it's not hard, Laurie. But...
[ Back home, he's not happy. He saw himself from the future, the Titans are flagging underneath the weight of their own responsibility, he was attacked at home and whisked away to a battle bigger than he thinks that any of them can cope with, but that - that's external stuff, right? Here, he can still be happy, right? ]
I think in the end, we can be happy, and move on. That's what you want, isn't it?