[ His eyes widen briefly at this sudden motion and outpouring, but Minato quickly recovers.
And in fact, he nods readily. He's never really the type to display overt sympathy, but there's something even quieter than usual, more present, about him. ] I thought that, too, for most of this past year. I just wanted to make sure my friends were all right, but for myself... it seemed pointless to do anything.
[ A beat.
Then, slowly, ] The problem is... that means we think everything here is pointless. That's not really living. When I was affected by Pan's curse, I was like that... but worse. I didn't care about anything at all. The only logical conclusion of that mindset is to do nothing but defend yourself, like an animal that doesn't want to die...
But, Tetsuo...
[ And here he meets his eyes directly, something painful and knowing behind it-- because hope, after so many years without, is painful like a lanced wound. ]
I don't actually want to live that way. Even if what I do here only matters here, even if it will all go away eventually, it's what's right in front of me. If this is all I can have, then I want to have it. Don't you? I don't want to throw this away. Do you want to?
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And in fact, he nods readily. He's never really the type to display overt sympathy, but there's something even quieter than usual, more present, about him. ] I thought that, too, for most of this past year. I just wanted to make sure my friends were all right, but for myself... it seemed pointless to do anything.
[ A beat.
Then, slowly, ] The problem is... that means we think everything here is pointless. That's not really living. When I was affected by Pan's curse, I was like that... but worse. I didn't care about anything at all. The only logical conclusion of that mindset is to do nothing but defend yourself, like an animal that doesn't want to die...
But, Tetsuo...
[ And here he meets his eyes directly, something painful and knowing behind it-- because hope, after so many years without, is painful like a lanced wound. ]
I don't actually want to live that way. Even if what I do here only matters here, even if it will all go away eventually, it's what's right in front of me. If this is all I can have, then I want to have it. Don't you? I don't want to throw this away. Do you want to?