[His hand doesn't stop running through his hair. Listening to Ken try to reason with him, that he couldn't go back to that house the way it was, if at all. He was right, you couldn't. And Kaneda wouldn't let him. He'd sacrificed Ken's safety for Tetsuo's own, and he promised he'd never make that mistake again.
But that's not what he's talking about, when he says that.]
You once said, a home isn't always physical, you know? The people you're around, they're what make a home. I didn't get it at first...it sounded kind of stupid, you know? A home is a building--that's what I thought it was.
When I said you're home, I didn't mean going back there. Like hell I'm putting you through that. [Instead of saying any more, he rolls down the cuff of his glove, showing that ribbon Ken had untied from his uniform. One of the last bits that had been saved from Tetsuo's attack. And the one thing that gave him comfort in that jungle. It was a piece of Ken that was always with him.] Your home is here.
[With me.
It's only then that he pulls back from Ken completely, leaning down to look into those eyes.]
I want you to know something, alright? No, you -NEED- to know something, so listen.
I..--
[His voice stops, like his mouth physically wouldn't go any farther than that. That voice is just no longer there, stammering to make some kind of sound that isn't just a huff of air. Trying his damned hardest to work it out. But it doesn't come.
He's frustrated by the way his vocal chords completely shut down, and all he could do was hope Ken would understand. Hoping that his actions and body language would speak what his mouth failed to do.
He wanted to say it so bad. One three word phrase he'd wanted to tell Tetsuo the night he came back to Nonah 05, choking on the same word.
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But that's not what he's talking about, when he says that.]
You once said, a home isn't always physical, you know? The people you're around, they're what make a home. I didn't get it at first...it sounded kind of stupid, you know? A home is a building--that's what I thought it was.
When I said you're home, I didn't mean going back there. Like hell I'm putting you through that. [Instead of saying any more, he rolls down the cuff of his glove, showing that ribbon Ken had untied from his uniform. One of the last bits that had been saved from Tetsuo's attack. And the one thing that gave him comfort in that jungle. It was a piece of Ken that was always with him.] Your home is here.
[With me.
It's only then that he pulls back from Ken completely, leaning down to look into those eyes.]
I want you to know something, alright? No, you -NEED- to know something, so listen.
I..--
[His voice stops, like his mouth physically wouldn't go any farther than that. That voice is just no longer there, stammering to make some kind of sound that isn't just a huff of air. Trying his damned hardest to work it out. But it doesn't come.
He's frustrated by the way his vocal chords completely shut down, and all he could do was hope Ken would understand. Hoping that his actions and body language would speak what his mouth failed to do.
He wanted to say it so bad. One three word phrase he'd wanted to tell Tetsuo the night he came back to Nonah 05, choking on the same word.
I love you]