[If Tetsuo's expecting any of those to happen, they don't come. All that happens is Kaneda's arms open up for him, cradling Tetsuo's head in his shoulder and feeling those tears start to soak into the fabric. It's hard to remain strong, and to not cry with him. But that doesn't stop his muscles from shuddering as he breathes out, holding onto him as tight as he can.
He'd never actually wanted Tetsuo to cry. Back in the day, he'd take stabs at him, or occasionally tease. But he never...ever liked seeing it. It was why he fought those bullies in the first place, getting back that toy that they'd taken from him. Because Tetsuo was something gentle in a world that wouldn't protect him. And Kaneda...who always saw himself as already tainted by that world, thought he could preserve it.
A fool's wish, honestly.
Because it only ended with Tetsuo twisting into something else.
He doesn't know what to do or say, fingers clenching that hair and threading it out, eyes clenched tight as if that would shut out any invading thoughts that this would end. He wanted this hug more than anything in the world, but he didn't want Tetsuo to cry again.
It's the saddest and happiest moment of his life, all in one moment. ]
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He'd never actually wanted Tetsuo to cry. Back in the day, he'd take stabs at him, or occasionally tease. But he never...ever liked seeing it. It was why he fought those bullies in the first place, getting back that toy that they'd taken from him. Because Tetsuo was something gentle in a world that wouldn't protect him. And Kaneda...who always saw himself as already tainted by that world, thought he could preserve it.
A fool's wish, honestly.
Because it only ended with Tetsuo twisting into something else.
He doesn't know what to do or say, fingers clenching that hair and threading it out, eyes clenched tight as if that would shut out any invading thoughts that this would end. He wanted this hug more than anything in the world, but he didn't want Tetsuo to cry again.
It's the saddest and happiest moment of his life, all in one moment. ]