This is the point where Toby normally would beg Dorian not to take it the wrong way. Only he doesn't, because he can't, and it seems wrong that he feels this way. He sighs.

"Dorian, I really... I don't know, maybe you've already been through something like this, before I got here."

He looks the same as he feels: ashamed, and like he wants to cry. When he speaks again, his words come out in a ramble.

"The moment I thought you betrayed me, I thought it was all over. Completely. I left without even looking back, because ever since I met him, I wanted him." A beat. "I've never felt so strongly about anyone since meeting you, and the way I feel about him, I don't know why, it bothers me even though we've both had our fill of other distractions, other people. And yet, my feelings... for Drew, they frighten me, I don't want to lose you, I want you, I need you, Dorian..."

Toby feels like he's gone mad. His voice is all choked up, his eyes glassy with tears.

"I don't know if any of that even made sense anymore..."