[ He answered automatically, almost wryly. It's easy to make things into jokes, like this. It's better, right? Better to do that instead of deal with the difficult reality that was the fact that John was gone. He still wanted to hold onto hope that he'd be back soon. That this was just temporary, and it didn't feel right to bitch about it to people when tomorrow it could all be fixed, and John wasn't gone.
But Joker had said no judgments, right? Well, with Kaidan around, that was probably amended to few judgments. He knew he judged plenty on his own. ]
I guess I just...hadn't braced myself for this. We'd both been here for a while, but it hasn't even -- It wasn't long enough. I mean, I guess...
[ A pause, and then he did go for the drink. ]
I guess there's the reality that no matter what, it's... we could die any moment when we get home. It's never really going to be enough.
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[ He answered automatically, almost wryly. It's easy to make things into jokes, like this. It's better, right? Better to do that instead of deal with the difficult reality that was the fact that John was gone. He still wanted to hold onto hope that he'd be back soon. That this was just temporary, and it didn't feel right to bitch about it to people when tomorrow it could all be fixed, and John wasn't gone.
But Joker had said no judgments, right? Well, with Kaidan around, that was probably amended to few judgments. He knew he judged plenty on his own. ]
I guess I just...hadn't braced myself for this. We'd both been here for a while, but it hasn't even -- It wasn't long enough. I mean, I guess...
[ A pause, and then he did go for the drink. ]
I guess there's the reality that no matter what, it's... we could die any moment when we get home. It's never really going to be enough.