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maskormenacelogs2015-08-08 02:07 am
daimeinashi) wrote in maskormenacelogs2015-08-08 02:07 am
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i walked the streets to find the one i'd looked for
WHO: Sai and Kitty
WHERE: Gini's cafe, after hours
WHEN: Sometime after Kitty returns to Heropa
WHAT: A deal is off, and conversations will be had
WARNINGS: Possible discussions of war & violence
[There's an odd sensation in his stomach as he makes his way to meet in the cafe where Kitty works. Unease? Apprehension? That seems closest to what his books describe of those emotions, anyway. It's sort of like the experience of walking through enemy territory, keeping vigilant for potential ambushes--except he has no mission and there is no danger present, so the lingering sense of gnawing at him is frustratingly irrelevant and confusing.
He doesn't know why he should care at all, if caring is the reason behind this discomfort--which he suspects it might be, since all rational explanations fail to hold water. He and Kitty had an arrangement with some very explicitly defined terms. War has broken out in his world, which renders their agreement null and void. They were both aware of this possibility from the very beginning.
...So why does he feel like he has failed, somehow? He knows where his loyalties lie, knows that he cannot make any decision other than this, but he is hesitant to actually make it. He remembers the way she had looked at him, when she had asked for his help. It was almost exactly like how Naruto had looked when they failed to retrieve Sasuke at the end of the Tenchi Bridge mission, though Kitty had not succumbed to tears.
He finds himself, unexpectedly, wishing he could do both. But even if he survives the war (and that is a very big 'if'), the scope of it that Kakashi had suggested--all five great shinobi countries allying against a common enemy--is so massive that it is beyond the realm of possibility that the Hokage could approve another right on its heels. That's strange, too. He's used to working within the bounds of established reality, not thinking beyond it.
Sai sits at one of the booths in the far corner of the cafe, absently sketching as he waits for Kitty to finish up work. He orders a couple pastries to keep the staff satisfied, though in honesty, he's probably going to give most of it to Naruto when he gets home later, anyway.
When she finally stops and sits down at the table with him he puts down his pencil, giving her an acknowledging nod.]
Thank you for meeting with me today, Kitty.
WHERE: Gini's cafe, after hours
WHEN: Sometime after Kitty returns to Heropa
WHAT: A deal is off, and conversations will be had
WARNINGS: Possible discussions of war & violence
[There's an odd sensation in his stomach as he makes his way to meet in the cafe where Kitty works. Unease? Apprehension? That seems closest to what his books describe of those emotions, anyway. It's sort of like the experience of walking through enemy territory, keeping vigilant for potential ambushes--except he has no mission and there is no danger present, so the lingering sense of gnawing at him is frustratingly irrelevant and confusing.
He doesn't know why he should care at all, if caring is the reason behind this discomfort--which he suspects it might be, since all rational explanations fail to hold water. He and Kitty had an arrangement with some very explicitly defined terms. War has broken out in his world, which renders their agreement null and void. They were both aware of this possibility from the very beginning.
...So why does he feel like he has failed, somehow? He knows where his loyalties lie, knows that he cannot make any decision other than this, but he is hesitant to actually make it. He remembers the way she had looked at him, when she had asked for his help. It was almost exactly like how Naruto had looked when they failed to retrieve Sasuke at the end of the Tenchi Bridge mission, though Kitty had not succumbed to tears.
He finds himself, unexpectedly, wishing he could do both. But even if he survives the war (and that is a very big 'if'), the scope of it that Kakashi had suggested--all five great shinobi countries allying against a common enemy--is so massive that it is beyond the realm of possibility that the Hokage could approve another right on its heels. That's strange, too. He's used to working within the bounds of established reality, not thinking beyond it.
Sai sits at one of the booths in the far corner of the cafe, absently sketching as he waits for Kitty to finish up work. He orders a couple pastries to keep the staff satisfied, though in honesty, he's probably going to give most of it to Naruto when he gets home later, anyway.
When she finally stops and sits down at the table with him he puts down his pencil, giving her an acknowledging nod.]
Thank you for meeting with me today, Kitty.