He shrugs. "I don't know. I don't think he knew then, and I don't know if he knows right now either."
If he really wanted to die, it was probably easy. If he could access suppressants he could probably have gotten any other sort of drug. Any weapon. He could've been like Ken; they were both connected to the Kirijo through SEES and had access to any weapon they wanted as long as they could convince people it was to fight Shadows. But Shinjiro didn't. He stuck around, hung out with Akihiko, came back to SEES, went on Koromaru's walks and they were probably similar in that way, too.
"When he died, he said that that was how it should be... but I think he liked SEES a lot, too. He cares a lot about everyone, especially Sanada-san. He just didn't think he deserved to live."
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If he really wanted to die, it was probably easy. If he could access suppressants he could probably have gotten any other sort of drug. Any weapon. He could've been like Ken; they were both connected to the Kirijo through SEES and had access to any weapon they wanted as long as they could convince people it was to fight Shadows. But Shinjiro didn't. He stuck around, hung out with Akihiko, came back to SEES, went on Koromaru's walks and they were probably similar in that way, too.
"When he died, he said that that was how it should be... but I think he liked SEES a lot, too. He cares a lot about everyone, especially Sanada-san. He just didn't think he deserved to live."