[How can he? He looks at her, eyes round, mouth closed as he bites back the question. How can he forget? People said that all the time, and he still doesn't understand. What did he to deserve to live? If there's a reason for him to be alive, then what is it? Is he ever supposed to find out?]

I don't know about deserving to, or being supposed to, or anything like that. That's what everyone says... but that's not a real answer. But it's not fair to expect an answer from someone else about something like this.