Ken thinks that he's selfish. Then he overcompensates for it, making decisions based on, like Magicman said, what he thinks would be for other people's sakes to the point that it came full circle and got selfish again; this time, he had a lot of reminders that all the thoughts he had about things being better about him were just that: thoughts. He doesn't know which is right, and that was why he had gone to that doctor. His friends took him home after that, and now they were telling him the opposite. And here, now, it's his own choice again.

"I want to be with these people," is his answer, soft and hesitant but earnest. Through all this, that much had always been true. "I don't know if that's right. If it's okay... But I can't know. I don't want to regret anymore."