"I'm glad he's okay. I know that the Organization did terrible things to him, to his memories..."
She clasps her hands together in front of her chest, willing herself to stay calm and explain it all rationally, telling herself that everything worked out okay in the end and Riku can't be angry with her for it all, he wasn't the first time and he knows it wasn't her fault, right?
Except he doesn't, not right now.
She takes a deep breath.
"We've all done bad things Riku. When it comes to helping someone you love, like a best friend, you would do anything to keep them safe, even if it's something that hurts them."
'You both think you can do whatever you want. Well I'm sick of it. Go on, you just keep running!'
She closes her eyes and tries to forget about the pain she remembers in Axel's voice in Twilight Town the last time they'd seen each other. Perhaps now she should start to explain.
"I don't exist anymore back home," she says, quickly, like pulling off a band-aid. "I wasn't- I wasn't what the Organization- I was supposed to be their puppet. That's why they created me. But I couldn't let them use me for what they wanted anymore, I knew it was wrong, and if I let them then Roxas would-"
The grip she has on her hands tightens, the leather of her gloves creaking audibly.
"I don't know how to tell you all of this, I don't even know how to tell Roxas and he's my best friend, I don't want to hurt him anymore."
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She clasps her hands together in front of her chest, willing herself to stay calm and explain it all rationally, telling herself that everything worked out okay in the end and Riku can't be angry with her for it all, he wasn't the first time and he knows it wasn't her fault, right?
Except he doesn't, not right now.
She takes a deep breath.
"We've all done bad things Riku. When it comes to helping someone you love, like a best friend, you would do anything to keep them safe, even if it's something that hurts them."
'You both think you can do whatever you want. Well I'm sick of it. Go on, you just keep running!'
She closes her eyes and tries to forget about the pain she remembers in Axel's voice in Twilight Town the last time they'd seen each other. Perhaps now she should start to explain.
"I don't exist anymore back home," she says, quickly, like pulling off a band-aid. "I wasn't- I wasn't what the Organization- I was supposed to be their puppet. That's why they created me. But I couldn't let them use me for what they wanted anymore, I knew it was wrong, and if I let them then Roxas would-"
The grip she has on her hands tightens, the leather of her gloves creaking audibly.
"I don't know how to tell you all of this, I don't even know how to tell Roxas and he's my best friend, I don't want to hurt him anymore."