[There's no taking back the question once it's been asked. Kaneki might want to, may even try, but Josuke is already shaking his head no in response.
He's lost people before. In fact, he's lost people to murder before. Maybe that means he should feel less strongly about it than he does, or at least be better able to guard what it is he feels, to keep others from seeing it? But for Josuke, that's not how it works. The more people he loses to senseless slaughter...
The angrier he gets about it.
Of course, the times before where murders had taken place, he'd been able to do something, to bring the killers to justice or at least...try. But here and now? There's nothing he can do. There's no outlet for those feelings within him, no real resolution to the problem at hand. Kaneki may be here with him now, but Suzuya's still out there, too. And the fact that Kaneki can smile at him like somehow that's all okay...?
Is really not alright at all.
Sighing, he shrugs off Kaneki's hand.]
Look, don't worry about me, I'm fine.
[After all, he's not even the one who was killed!]
I know you're here—and that means more to me than you know. [Ken's the first person he's lost who's ever come back to life. It might be normal in this place, this side of the Porter, but it's still some kind of miracle as far as Josuke's concerned. Because he's tried before. Tried to 'fix' death. And failed. So this? Ken standing there beside him, walking down the street with him? That's right up at the top of his list of the best damn things in the world right now. But it still doesn't solve anything.] It doesn't change what happened, though. It doesn't change the fact that I wasn't there.
[Even if he keeps telling himself there's literally no way he could have known to be there, he still keeps thinking if only he had been...]
And that bastard who attacked you? He's probably still running loose.
[Which really...just makes Josuke more worried for Kaneki.]
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He's lost people before. In fact, he's lost people to murder before. Maybe that means he should feel less strongly about it than he does, or at least be better able to guard what it is he feels, to keep others from seeing it? But for Josuke, that's not how it works. The more people he loses to senseless slaughter...
The angrier he gets about it.
Of course, the times before where murders had taken place, he'd been able to do something, to bring the killers to justice or at least...try. But here and now? There's nothing he can do. There's no outlet for those feelings within him, no real resolution to the problem at hand. Kaneki may be here with him now, but Suzuya's still out there, too. And the fact that Kaneki can smile at him like somehow that's all okay...?
Is really not alright at all.
Sighing, he shrugs off Kaneki's hand.]
Look, don't worry about me, I'm fine.
[After all, he's not even the one who was killed!]
I know you're here—and that means more to me than you know. [Ken's the first person he's lost who's ever come back to life. It might be normal in this place, this side of the Porter, but it's still some kind of miracle as far as Josuke's concerned. Because he's tried before. Tried to 'fix' death. And failed. So this? Ken standing there beside him, walking down the street with him? That's right up at the top of his list of the best damn things in the world right now. But it still doesn't solve anything.] It doesn't change what happened, though. It doesn't change the fact that I wasn't there.
[Even if he keeps telling himself there's literally no way he could have known to be there, he still keeps thinking if only he had been...]
And that bastard who attacked you? He's probably still running loose.
[Which really...just makes Josuke more worried for Kaneki.]