[ he would tell her they can still dance together from time to time, but he can't promise her it'll happen. He doesn't know what is waiting for him, and there is so much he wants to do (even if he can't, right now). he is not trying to cut off ties with her but- ]
... I'm not in a place I can pretend I am who I was. The pure me... [ he doesn't finish. No. She doesn't know, she doesn't know what he became and she doesn't know he has been missing and pushing everyone away for six month, that he pushed the human side inside his mind so deep, tried to drown it, and pretend it wasn't there.
He is no longer doing that. So she doesn't need to know.
the things Ken did and the things Ken became ] I can't go back, but I can try to continue where I left of. Not being what I was, but trying to follow that path again, at least. [ because the path he chose before was wrong. ]
But there is still change, too much of it. And I still need to figure it out. Up until few days ago, I was pushing everyone away and telling myself I couldn't bring anyone into the world I belonged. And Touka kicked my ass because of that.
[ there is still a lot in his mind, it's all too fresh. And Kaneki can't pretend from time to time he feels like shoving his fingers inside his brain and pull something out, or that he doesn't hear Rize and Yamori or that he still has so many questions about everything.
Kaneki is nowhere near where he wants to be. But where he wants to be right now, is exactly the opposite of Annie, who wants to stay quiet; he wants to keep moving, gain strength, become stronger and better. ]
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... I'm not in a place I can pretend I am who I was. The pure me... [ he doesn't finish. No. She doesn't know, she doesn't know what he became and she doesn't know he has been missing and pushing everyone away for six month, that he pushed the human side inside his mind so deep, tried to drown it, and pretend it wasn't there.
He is no longer doing that. So she doesn't need to know.
the things Ken did and the things Ken became ] I can't go back, but I can try to continue where I left of. Not being what I was, but trying to follow that path again, at least. [ because the path he chose before was wrong. ]
But there is still change, too much of it. And I still need to figure it out. Up until few days ago, I was pushing everyone away and telling myself I couldn't bring anyone into the world I belonged. And Touka kicked my ass because of that.
[ there is still a lot in his mind, it's all too fresh. And Kaneki can't pretend from time to time he feels like shoving his fingers inside his brain and pull something out, or that he doesn't hear Rize and Yamori or that he still has so many questions about everything.
Kaneki is nowhere near where he wants to be. But where he wants to be right now, is exactly the opposite of Annie, who wants to stay quiet; he wants to keep moving, gain strength, become stronger and better. ]