[ Annie's question doesn't earn her a glance; he has repeated it to himself over and over again what he wants to do, what his objective is, that it becomes difficult for him to see anything else but that. He is silent for the next moment, glad he brought the coffee cup because he can look down at it as he thinks. ]
I want... to protect everyone. Hide, Reiner, you, Josuke. I don't want to lose anyone important to me anymore, I don't want to see anyone hurt or in pain.
[ Kaneki's fixation on the coffee increases. His eye widens a bit and his expression flashes into something perhaps a bit dangerous. With the free hand, Kaneki thumb presses against the finger right below the joint and forces it down until a "crack" is heard.
Protect everyone. Pluck out interferences, eradicate those who do anything unnecessary. Keep everyone safe, keep everyone alive. No pain, no hurting.
They are fine.
They will be fine.
Not struggling alone, no. He promised Hide, not anymore. he promised Touka, too. he has friends, he doesn't have to do it all alone, it's okay to rely on them. Protect everyone, but keep close.
There is a loud sound in his ear. It scratches and scratches: munch munch, chomp chomp, chew chew- he wants to scratch it, push his fingers inside and search for it to pull it out.
Stop, stop.
Kaneki looks back at Annie, after that weird pause, to continue what he had started to say. Even if he had a pause and had a temporary episode of insanity just now, his train of thought returns fast ]
I know I can't do it the way I did back home. This world is not mine, there are differences and there is a lot I no longer have to deal with, just like there is a lot I need to deal with now. I need a different sort of strength, not just the kind I found back in my world.
[ he will find a way to keep everyone safe. Learn about Hornets and what this government hides. The Porter, how all the pieces fit together and going back home. All of that stills needs to be done. Right now, he has the ankle monitor, so there isn't much he can do. Not even the few months after, since it wouldn't fit well to suddenly go Unsettled after a month of being a criminal. He will play along with the government for a little while. ]
there we go back to tl;dr
I want... to protect everyone. Hide, Reiner, you, Josuke. I don't want to lose anyone important to me anymore, I don't want to see anyone hurt or in pain.
[ Kaneki's fixation on the coffee increases. His eye widens a bit and his expression flashes into something perhaps a bit dangerous. With the free hand, Kaneki thumb presses against the finger right below the joint and forces it down until a "crack" is heard.
Protect everyone. Pluck out interferences, eradicate those who do anything unnecessary. Keep everyone safe, keep everyone alive. No pain, no hurting.
They are fine.
They will be fine.
Not struggling alone, no. He promised Hide, not anymore. he promised Touka, too. he has friends, he doesn't have to do it all alone, it's okay to rely on them. Protect everyone, but keep close.
There is a loud sound in his ear. It scratches and scratches: munch munch, chomp chomp, chew chew- he wants to scratch it, push his fingers inside and search for it to pull it out.
Stop, stop.
Kaneki looks back at Annie, after that weird pause, to continue what he had started to say. Even if he had a pause and had a temporary episode of insanity just now, his train of thought returns fast ]
I know I can't do it the way I did back home. This world is not mine, there are differences and there is a lot I no longer have to deal with, just like there is a lot I need to deal with now. I need a different sort of strength, not just the kind I found back in my world.
[ he will find a way to keep everyone safe. Learn about Hornets and what this government hides. The Porter, how all the pieces fit together and going back home. All of that stills needs to be done. Right now, he has the ankle monitor, so there isn't much he can do. Not even the few months after, since it wouldn't fit well to suddenly go Unsettled after a month of being a criminal. He will play along with the government for a little while. ]
But it won't change, my objective.