[ Kaneki eyes Annie in silence as she explains. Under the military thumb is exactly Annie's current situation. Kaneki doesn't envy her, but he can't help her with this right now; three months go by faster than it appears, though he agrees it's not something you«d just nod and say "it'll go by fast". He hates the idea of her being used like that, but right now, he can't do anything at all, not even for himself.
he can't ask her to what extent she is willing to go through that bullshit, either, though it crosses his mind.
Is it even his place trying to rid her of all of that?
No, no, it is; he has to protect everyone. Even here. He is weak still, look at him now, look at him facing this? So weak. He needs more strength. He needs to move, do more. He needs -
He needs-
he needs--
Kaneki takes a sip of his coffee. It's not the time to go into overdrive right now. It's not time to want to do more than he can; he has to get stronger and know more, and so he will, but right now he has a ankle monitor and a parole officer and a smile to offer everyone involved. ]
Are you afraid of what they might ask you to do? [ he opts to ask t this way, but doesn't expect a straight answer out of Annie.
Kaneki smiles at the rest of her words. Even if Annie was to hit Kaneki hard enough so he'd feel, the way Reiner once hit him, he has come to a point pain no longer means a thing. He was tortured to extremes, he lived 10 days with a centipede inside his ear, eating away his brain; his fingers were cut off again and again, and his eyes stabbed with needles over and over. That's only physical torture - there was emotional and psychological torture as well.
Pain no longer exists.
A punch would just assert a point, he believes. ] Do you know what I did?
no subject
he can't ask her to what extent she is willing to go through that bullshit, either, though it crosses his mind.
Is it even his place trying to rid her of all of that?
No, no, it is; he has to protect everyone. Even here. He is weak still, look at him now, look at him facing this? So weak. He needs more strength. He needs to move, do more. He needs -
He needs-
he needs--
Kaneki takes a sip of his coffee. It's not the time to go into overdrive right now. It's not time to want to do more than he can; he has to get stronger and know more, and so he will, but right now he has a ankle monitor and a parole officer and a smile to offer everyone involved. ]
Are you afraid of what they might ask you to do? [ he opts to ask t this way, but doesn't expect a straight answer out of Annie.
Kaneki smiles at the rest of her words. Even if Annie was to hit Kaneki hard enough so he'd feel, the way Reiner once hit him, he has come to a point pain no longer means a thing. He was tortured to extremes, he lived 10 days with a centipede inside his ear, eating away his brain; his fingers were cut off again and again, and his eyes stabbed with needles over and over. That's only physical torture - there was emotional and psychological torture as well.
Pain no longer exists.
A punch would just assert a point, he believes. ] Do you know what I did?