[ it's fine if Hide doesn't understand. he doesn't have to. He is not part of that world. But Kaneki has pushed him away as he could from it, and he knows he can't do that, not when he himself is technically part of both. He can't push his friend away. Not anymore.
When Hide takes Kaneki's hand, he doesn't pull away, either. He watches Hide's fingers carefully, the difference between his own and the other's, and the looks up again back at his friend.
What does he want to do from here on? Not be alone? He doesn't want to be alone. Touka was right; maybe he did all of this because he couldn't bare it, to be alone, because if--- no. No. NO.
No. No no no NONo nO noNononOno-
Protect everyone. Not struggling alone, but with everyone's support, to be able to protect everyone. That's what he has been doing, even with the wrong methods, but it's always what he wanted and still wants.
To protect this person in front of him. Always.
His head hurts. hat does he want to do here? Here is not there, here there is no Rize, no Anteiku, what does he want? Protect who from what? He is tired. It's the first time he has some time to rest for a long time now and he isn't sure what "now" has to offer.
Kaneki looks away for a second to rethink, and his hand squeezes Hide's gently. ]
I miss studying. [ he does. He misses enjoying it too. ] I miss your texts. I miss Disney World- [ they have only been there once and Kaneki forgot it when he went back to his world. But right now, he misses it ]
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When Hide takes Kaneki's hand, he doesn't pull away, either. He watches Hide's fingers carefully, the difference between his own and the other's, and the looks up again back at his friend.
What does he want to do from here on? Not be alone? He doesn't want to be alone. Touka was right; maybe he did all of this because he couldn't bare it, to be alone, because if--- no. No. NO.
No. No no no NONo nO noNononOno-
Protect everyone. Not struggling alone, but with everyone's support, to be able to protect everyone. That's what he has been doing, even with the wrong methods, but it's always what he wanted and still wants.
To protect this person in front of him. Always.
His head hurts. hat does he want to do here? Here is not there, here there is no Rize, no Anteiku, what does he want? Protect who from what? He is tired. It's the first time he has some time to rest for a long time now and he isn't sure what "now" has to offer.
Kaneki looks away for a second to rethink, and his hand squeezes Hide's gently. ]
I miss studying. [ he does. He misses enjoying it too. ] I miss your texts. I miss Disney World- [ they have only been there once and Kaneki forgot it when he went back to his world. But right now, he misses it ]
I'm sorry I left you in the dark for so long.