The first cut is Kylo saying Ronan doesn’t need Murphy. It stings more than Murphy had ever thought it would. Crushing, really. His sadness coils tight around his chest. The second one comes in the shape of his name, John. But it means a lot, being called by his first name. There’s such pain in John. There’s also love. Bittersweet.
To Murphy, being wanted or needed equated to how much you were worth, how much love you’d be receiving. If you weren’t useful if you weren’t wanted, then what was the point of it all? The last thing Murphy had come here to do was talk about this.
It makes him grow defensive, upset. “You don’t understand.” But, funnily enough, Kylo was one definitely did understand, wholeheartedly.
“No one cares about people who aren’t useful. They’ll let them die. Friendships end over that shit. Everything ends over that shit, being unwanted. No one cares about that person.” And Murphy had always been that person. “You saw it. What they did to me. That’s what happens. You die.”
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To Murphy, being wanted or needed equated to how much you were worth, how much love you’d be receiving. If you weren’t useful if you weren’t wanted, then what was the point of it all? The last thing Murphy had come here to do was talk about this.
It makes him grow defensive, upset. “You don’t understand.” But, funnily enough, Kylo was one definitely did understand, wholeheartedly.
“No one cares about people who aren’t useful. They’ll let them die. Friendships end over that shit. Everything ends over that shit, being unwanted. No one cares about that person.” And Murphy had always been that person. “You saw it. What they did to me. That’s what happens. You die.”