Gabriel doesn't look exhausted when Lucifer says that. He wraps his arms over his chest and thinks.
About Lilith nearly burning him alive and the tilting edge of oblivion.
About the constant, constant, constant fucking nagging over this issue (and it's 50% Beelzebub's blessed fault.)
And Lucifer just looks so ...so - secure.
"Because it's what I was told to do!" The words burst out, "I don't know why I was told to do it, I just do it. Thinking for myself scares me all right?"
It's a command so enormous he obeys and- and -
"And you don't get it. Alright? Or- or maybe you do." He gestures, a few people shying away from him in surprise, "Sure. All right in the time I've been here, you get it. But she's all I have and I can't and won't say no."
He deflates, and one can practically see him wither, "I just...then there's the anger. The absolute deep deep rage when I think about what the traitors did. It's overwhelming and I want to beat them because they shouldn't have done that. Ending the world is just...a means to that and making it go away."
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About Lilith nearly burning him alive and the tilting edge of oblivion.
About the constant, constant, constant fucking nagging over this issue (and it's 50% Beelzebub's blessed fault.)
And Lucifer just looks so ...so - secure.
"Because it's what I was told to do!" The words burst out, "I don't know why I was told to do it, I just do it. Thinking for myself scares me all right?"
It's a command so enormous he obeys and- and -
"And you don't get it. Alright? Or- or maybe you do." He gestures, a few people shying away from him in surprise, "Sure. All right in the time I've been here, you get it. But she's all I have and I can't and won't say no."
He deflates, and one can practically see him wither, "I just...then there's the anger. The absolute deep deep rage when I think about what the traitors did. It's overwhelming and I want to beat them because they shouldn't have done that. Ending the world is just...a means to that and making it go away."