[again, she freezes up as he starts to move, chewing on the inside of her lip. part of her already regrets speaking, because, once again...she's begun to say things that only bring grimness and gloom. this isn't how she's supposed to act, is it? is she really going to waste precious, fought-for time in being jealous of hypotheticals and people she doesn't even know when he's right here with her?

childish and pathetic.

she turns her head a bit so she can glance aside, her face warming with embarrassment at being looked upon. the hand in his hair uncurls a little, uncertain of whether or not to stay or move.]

M-maybe I just...hate feeling so naive. [she gulps, her eyes wincing.] But I don't know how else I'm supposed to feel. If this is...if it's not really that big a deal for you. What we've done.

[but that's not fair. that's not fair, she's-- not like that! not like this. with anyone. and she wouldn't be, she couldn't fathom it.

her hand leaves his hair, drawn back to herself, to her face, over her eyes as her teeth grit.]

But it's a big deal for me...!