28 👶 HEARTBREAK MULTIPLIES [closed]

[pillz]

WHO: Joseph Kavinsky & 'friends' ig
WHERE: De Chima, Maurtia Falls, etc.
WHEN: October 2019
WHAT: Catch-all for October, hmu on Plurk @ shramp if you would like to play!
WARNINGS: Possible violence, sexual content, offensive language (racism, sexism, etc.)



closed to kylo ren;

[it's breakfast at the meadows, for those of us who may periodically eat breakfast. and kavinsky is here. it's the first time anyone has seen him back at the meadows after the explosive encounter with murphy last month, but it was probably inevitable that that reprieve would end. kylo ren no doubt feels it in the force long before he makes his way down the steps.

the dream thief is sitting at the table, neglecting a cup of coffee by his hand.] We gotta stop meeting like this, [kavinsky says, almost as if nothing had happened. but this is actually just how he is after things have happened. there's a brief death threats phase, then a violent overreaction phase, then an eerie approximation of indifference phase, and not always in that order or single iteration. he scratches his neck, studying kylo ren out from under heavy eyelids.]

Hey. Hey, how you feel about chopping some wood topless today? Paparazzi would love it. Not gonna lie, I could use the cash.

closed to ronan;

[the joseph kavinsky apology tour of october 2019 starts how you'd expect. on the first day of october, the words,

my bad 😔
can be found spraypainted on the outside of the meadows house in lurid green paint, while smelling eerily like blood, yet fading away politely as the sun makes its way up and down the sky. on the second day of october, the icepack that had been rendered to k's use is replaced in the fridge, and there are irish mince pies too, as well as an automated robotic lawnmower swerving dangerously close to killing the family of voles in the yard outside. on the third day, kavinsky texts.]

come hang out 2day

closed to cassidy;

I wanted to say thanks for letting me stay. [kavinsky seems more normal now. i mean he's never been normal, and cassidy only met him after he began a life of crimes you can get the electric chair for, some parts of the world back home. but a couple weeks ago, when he slept on the couch with a face like an overripe melon attacked by a hacksaw, he'd seemed full of spiky, humming, hideous energy, a wasp hive in a human skinsuit.

but today, he's more like his usual self. healed, obviously. smug and slightly subhuman, cleaned up nicely outside that hints heavily as to the dirt in his soul. and grinning big, boyish when the vampire comes to the door. he seizes cassidy by the hand.] C'mon.

closed to rupert;

[2am at the club, maurtia falls. which club? a club. kavinsky generally just rolls up to the first place with valet and a long enough line out front to look intimidating, flashes his import id, and that's enough to get himself in, even in absence of a cis lady figure.

in reality, kavinsky drinks and does far fewer drugs than he used to, and being at the club is a new kind of high. well, an old one. one that actually predated the drinking and the drugging, but enhanced it. kavinsky actually likes being around people, much as he hates everything including people. he likes how people are hungry, needy, exploitable, fun. he likes the validation of his admirers, the pain of his critics, the rush of conquest any time he breaks someone to his will, even if it's something as stupid as bumping into someone on the sidealk without apologizing.

which he does now. but dr. chilton raised him better than that, and the next moment, he's setting his sights on the neon door at the end of the velvet ropes. he starts toward it, slinging the key fob for his black jaguar into the hands of the valet man along with a fat tip (also credit to: dr. c). he doesn't notice the other young import pausing by the roadside.]

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[photophobic]

[Kylo, with his ability to see in the minds of others exactly what they think and feel about him, has met plenty of mirrors.

Some reflections he likes more than others. Some are far more flattering and pleasant to look at. He's always enjoyed the way he appears in Kavinsky's thoughts, whenever he catches a glimpse of the particular colours of challenge and power the dream thief chooses to paint him with.

A thin smile pulls over his face at the question.]

I've done a lot of things that might be considered the worst of all my sins, depending on who you asked. I've inflicted a lot of wounds. Which would you like to judge me on? The deepest? Or the cruelest. The wickedest.

[pillz]

Are you fucking with me?

[the question is light.] Whipping out a thesaurus after I low-key offered to suck your dick. That's rude. [kavinsky stretches out his tattooed arms on either side of himself.]

Look, I'll call off the stupid game. I feel like that's what you're angling for. [which was, after all, all about their respective pasts. their sins. whether they could let that go, for ronan's sake. for the sake of this place.] But you gotta give me something, man.

[photophobic]

[A flash of amusement crosses Kylo's face— but not, importantly, mockery.]

I'm not fucking with you. Though if what you wanted was to suck my dick, Joseph, maybe you should have said so.

[The slight tilt of his head indicates a shift in direction. Amusement slips away, uncovering the curiosity beneath.]

What is it you want? Not from Ronan. From me. Do you know?

[pillz]

[kylo ren without ronan lynch operating as easy, obvious, reliable reason. kavinsky has to think about that.]

Victory, without having to fight or risk having to lose. Figure you out, without having to look like I'm trying. Figure me out, without having to be wrong, any point. [there's the briefest ghost of a smile. he seems like he's quoting someone after that, lyrical and one foot somewhere else. he is far removed from the kid ronan used to know.] Pleasure, acceptance, a reasonable return in investment.

What do you want?

[photophobic]

[Most people would nod slowly. Kylo doesn't— but only because he doesn't have the instinct to make a display of his agreement that others often expect. He doesn't care to encourage.

He is pleased, though. These are good answers. And, more importantly, they match.]

Adventure.

[Now, his mouth pulls into a curve.]

Discovery. I could pull some more words from the thesaurus if you like.

[pillz]

[aw, fuck you buddy. but kavinsky only grins vulpine in the sunshine.

but then it fades slightly. this is a nice conversation, but kavinsky never trusts anything that's nice to begin with, never mind the spoken word. he is a compulsive liar, and he's been -- in his own twisted understanding -- passed up, ignored, deprioritized compare to other people for years now. it's a bit of a sore subject.

statements of sentiment, declarations of intent, are not the same as promises. he's been getting used to this idea. learning like, one point five percent chill. like:]

You think we can still screw around on your thesaurus while I don't got a room here? [he asks, careful to: not look like he cares.] Besides, the little space boy doesn't like me around. Let's pretend for a minute I'm gonna respect that, some point.

[photophobic]

We're pretending the little space boy isn't going to change his mind too, are we.

[Kylo's tease is oddly warm, really. But he switches tack quickly, as if he's aware on some level at least, that there is a line that can't be crossed. He glances back towards the farmhouse.]

There are other rooms. But I'd come. If you invited me to join you for a drive.

[pillz]

[for a brief moment, kavinsky thinks about that; appreciative of kylo ren's delicacy, refusing to acknowledge its necessity. then he lets a shrug rolls through his skinny shoulders, a half-smile that's almost bashful, to admit:] Might be I don't really want him to change his mind.

[he'd lived in john murphy's old bedroom for a long time. in that farmhouse, grieving, remembering, surrounded by reminders of what he could no longer have, a parasitic presence on the meadows that had long outlasted its host. before that, he'd always been free— and alone. there's probably no other way to be, really, but there's a whole world to fuck around in. you never come back home if you don't leave.]

Turned out good, last time we went for a drive. Didn't it?

[there's a low-key fucked up evil tree growing right over there, out of the bones of the totalled car, to show for it.]

[photophobic]

[It's certainly less complicated, to be hated. Kylo knows a little about the fantasy of the burned bridge as security. Salted earth. The home you can't return to because you razed it to the ground.

It doesn't work, of course, if you still want to go home. He learned that too late in a galaxy far far away.]

Challenge.

[There's another broad, grand word instead of connection. He'd be laughing, perhaps, if it weren't so completely off-brand.]

I enjoyed it. Though you know it bleeds, don't you? That thing. Black. Every time I cut it back.

[pillz]

New game. [kavinsky grins at that, quick and boyish, but there are still probably too many teeth. a charming landshark in khakis. this is him at his most agreeable.

to be fair, it's a lot better than his least agreeable.] The things I make are good at bleeding. They get confused about what it's for. Like it does anybody any good, keeping it on the inside.

[before, kavinsky had wandered nearer. now, he saunters away, feigning to pay less attention to kylo ren. more attention, instead, to the stump that the force master was using to chop wood. he hops onto the stump and looks down.] Can I ask you a question? [he says.] Don't answer it like you're trying to teach me some shit. Just answer it like you mean it.

[photophobic]

[How rude, calling him out on his favourite method of deflection like that. But he can respect Kavinsky for it. Even, almost, admire him for his irreverent fearlessness. He smiles, slow as the spread of an oilslick.]

You can ask.

[pillz]

[atop his new tree stump pedestal, kavinsky towers over kylo ren, now! by at least a few inches.

he smiles down at the force master. jedi-killer.]

Could you deal? [he asks.] If your boy came back, and he didn't remember you. Wouldn't stay dead, either, [just gonna head off the aforementioned kylo ren solution to interdimensional boyfriend problems.] Could you see him choose someone first, accept that. Your new place. Could you do it?

[the energy off kavinsky is different than it would have been a few weeks ago. a year ago, certainly. no suppurating wound, no ruined agony. it is: just a question. or at least, nearly.]

[photophobic]

No.

[Notably, he doesn't have to consider the question— the answer comes together as quickly as a puzzle already solved. Kylo's gaze is heavy. Solid.]

I'd take him.

i forgot a whole line so i am reposting idk why i do that now but i do. lmk if you want me to revise

[pillz]

[this time, it's kavinsky's turn to smile wide but slow. the force whispers what kavinsky knows: that does not work.

a thief knows. he's tried to steal everything before. from people to love. treasure. he's tried to steal his own life back.]

Who'dve thought, [he says.] I know more than Kylo Ren.

[he closes his eyes and tips his head back for a moment. feels the sun on his face; his pulse flutters under the fiery, winged tattoo on his neck. he is on the edge of something terrible and glorious and new. he knows it. he should have expected that all that fine rhetoric about leaving the past behind, between the two of them, had been merely rhetoric in any concrete way. he appreciates the honesty.]

See you around, Ren.

[snap.

and with that, he's gone.]