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maskormenacelogs2015-10-01 12:41 am
iamtetsuo) wrote in maskormenacelogs2015-10-01 12:41 am
Recovery is a form of being grounded, right? [Open Log]
WHO: Tetsuo and YOU
WHERE: Nonah 05/Nonah's Ark
WHEN: Post bike crash through october
WHAT: Karma caught up to him and he's stuck in Nonah 05 for a month. Waiting for your body to heal the rest of the way naturally SUCKS. Boredom, resentment and pain don't make a great combination, but he's down for the count.
WARNINGS: Tetsuo. Copious amounts of Tetsuo. Drugs, threats, all that fun stuff.
[Prompts available on request; for the most part:
Sept 29-Oct 18
Largely stuck on his bed being a wet cat. At some point he'll start meandering out into the living room for TV if no one's out there, but he's not really going far or doing much. Expect a lot of network or texting abuse, possible threats of violence, and probably hurting himself in the attempt to follow up on said threats.
For the curious, he's got a broken collarbone/some ribs; nothing life-threatening but definitely extremely annoying, not to mention painful. While this may take longer normally to heal, he's had some healing done, so we can just assume it'll be pretty much good to go by the end of the month. He might be getting a limiter forced on him at some point during the month.
Oct 18-on
As he starts feeling better, his goal's to be out and around Nonah as much as he can manage (not that much, but you bet he can try). He's supposed to be on bedrest for the month? Well, that's not exactly what he intends to do - just try and make him.
That said, he's not going to be up to doing anything strenuous, which is good for all of us. If you can't find him in Nonah 05, he'll be in the arcade or nearby areas. What are good judgement calls?
Action, audio, video, text, it's all good (update: oct 3 evening until oct 9 Tetsuo's comm is not working)]
WHERE: Nonah 05/Nonah's Ark
WHEN: Post bike crash through october
WHAT: Karma caught up to him and he's stuck in Nonah 05 for a month. Waiting for your body to heal the rest of the way naturally SUCKS. Boredom, resentment and pain don't make a great combination, but he's down for the count.
WARNINGS: Tetsuo. Copious amounts of Tetsuo. Drugs, threats, all that fun stuff.
[Prompts available on request; for the most part:
Sept 29-Oct 18
Largely stuck on his bed being a wet cat. At some point he'll start meandering out into the living room for TV if no one's out there, but he's not really going far or doing much. Expect a lot of network or texting abuse, possible threats of violence, and probably hurting himself in the attempt to follow up on said threats.
For the curious, he's got a broken collarbone/some ribs; nothing life-threatening but definitely extremely annoying, not to mention painful. While this may take longer normally to heal, he's had some healing done, so we can just assume it'll be pretty much good to go by the end of the month. He might be getting a limiter forced on him at some point during the month.
Oct 18-on
As he starts feeling better, his goal's to be out and around Nonah as much as he can manage (not that much, but you bet he can try). He's supposed to be on bedrest for the month? Well, that's not exactly what he intends to do - just try and make him.
That said, he's not going to be up to doing anything strenuous, which is good for all of us. If you can't find him in Nonah 05, he'll be in the arcade or nearby areas. What are good judgement calls?
Action, audio, video, text, it's all good (update: oct 3 evening until oct 9 Tetsuo's comm is not working)]
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[Why yes, as a matter of fact, he does. He has several problems with that. His expression goes more stern, and he sits up enough to take his tablet out of an inside coat pocket. Looks like he will be needing those news articles he pulled up earlier. Without preface, he starts reading off some choice snippets, scrolling down with his finger.]
"One missing, fifteen injured after imPort rampage." "Three hospitalized in pharmacy robbery." "As many as eight survivors may still be buried under the collapsed building, officials said..."
[He's looking for one in particular, though, and finds it fairly quickly.] Ah. "Officer Richard Hernandez remains in critical condition after his vehicle was thrown from a highway overpass last Thursday by a still-unidentified rogue imPort. Mrs. Hernandez and their two children, ages three and one, appeared on local news this morning to offer a passionate plea for answers..."
[At this point he looks up at Tetsuo again. If he had glasses, this would be the part where he'd lower them and frown over the rims.]
Should I go on? There's plenty more.
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Here... he could probably do something. Strike first, if he had to. It doesn't change the fact that Tetsuo's injured, and this guy apparently tracked him down with research. What's this guy plotting?]
So? What're you gonna do, huh?
[Shoving anger over anxiety, that always works. Twist it all into a challenge before he gets backed further into a corner.]
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I want to help you, Tetsuo. But I won't help you hurt people. And you've hurt a lot of people.
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[It's clear what answer he was expecting: anything that leads to a fight. It would have been an easier answer than the one he got.
What's he going to do? He's gonna get out of here again, and... that's as far as he'd planned. Time to deflect the question as much as possible.]
I- I'll figure that out later!
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Really. And when's "later"?
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[As long as it's not 'now'.]
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I've got other stuff to do right now!
[The room looks, aside from a few dents and scars here and there, just like he could have moved in earlier today. No belongings, no decorations, nothing. He doesn't even have books; just a bare shelf. Even if there were, he probably couldn't read any of them without a communicator to translate.
Stuff. Yes. Absolutely.]
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[i.e. he's clearly not going anywhere. And there is literally nothing in this room but him and his thoughts. And one guest. Qubit leans forward, making as direct of eye contact as Tetsuo will allow.]
I'm not telling you to issue an apology, or something like that - at least, not before you mean it. [Insincerity would do him more harm than good.] But your actions do have consequences, and even if you put off dealing with them, they will catch up with you. That's not a threat, it's a fact. Your victims and their families aren't going to accept that it was just "because you could."
[His voice takes on a lower tone, still calm and steady, but incisive.]
So I'll ask you again. Why did you do all this? ... What are you trying to prove?
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Tetsuo doesn't let himself break eye contact. He stares right back, eyebrows drawn down in a trademark glare. Though.. that means that Qubit can see his expression freeze as his situation starts to slowly sink in, fear fueling his defiance and rejection of the scenario. 'They have to catch me first' - but this random asshole tracked him down here somehow. He's open here for any retribution. Even at full power he's been beaten down before... like this? Where he can't dodge?
If that clown guy finds him like this...]
I don't have to prove anything!
[But his tone is way too defensive for that to be true. It's what he wants to be true, nothing more. He knows the real answer to that question - he's not the weak one. The fact he couldn't do much to anyone he actually fought at the swear in had to mean nothing - sure, most of the real fights he had in September he didn't win, but that has to be just because he's still learning, not because he can't. He has to be able to win eventually. He's not going to be the underdog forever. He needs to win, and keep winning.
Prove himself capable. Prove himself good enough - no, prove himself better. Prove he can do whatever he wants to do. Prove he doesn't need anyone's help...
Besides, what's the point of power if you don't use it?]
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You don't have to, no. That doesn't mean you aren't trying.
[And whatever the exact issue is, he has a pretty good guess who's the primary target.]
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[Because that always wins arguments and convinces people they're wrong somehow. Always, every time.
...shut up.]
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The room lapses into uncomfortable silence, the question still hanging unanswered between them. He keeps his eyes fixed piercingly on Tetsuo. Do you really want to play this game, kid? He can sit here all day.
I want to understand. He wants there to be substance there behind it. The violence itself is senseless, but the rage may not be. He may have every reason to be angry. Not that it would remotely absolve him of wrongdoing, obviously, but it'd be a place to start.
He finds himself thinking of Tony again. It's a new realization, but not one that surprises him much. That's why he feels so strongly about this. The burning, childish fury is so similar, and the power to take it out on whatever unfortunate bystander happens to be nearby. The situations aren't exactly the same, not by a long shot, but it's familiar enough to be painful.
I want to understand.]
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But Qubit doesn't take the dare. The quiet draws on and on without even a clock to punctuate it.
It's none of Qubit's business. He doesn't need to know. Any answer he's fishing for doesn't have to do with him, and as for why he wants to know... Tetsuo's done with people telling him what to do. And that's what this guy wants, right? For him to stop doing what he was doing? Even worse, Qubit hasn't told him what to do; there's little to outright refuse or rebel against in open ended questions.
Ones that Tetsuo hasn't even asked himself, and doesn't at all appreciate having to wonder about now.
When it's clear that this just isn't going to end, Tetsuo finally breaks the stare and glares at the ceiling instead. He doesn't want to talk, how clear can that get?]
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Well, we're at something of an impasse here, aren't we? You want my help, but if you don't tell me what's going on, I've no way of knowing you won't just take advantage of it again.
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There's nothing to tell!
[No one that defensive has nothing.]
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You mean Qubit, right?]I don't believe you.
[He says it very bluntly. Clearly he's getting nowhere asking questions, so it's time to use a more direct approach.]
Here's what I think. You're after independence. You've spent a long time playing second fiddle in some capacity or other. The little brother, the younger friend, or what have you. But now you're almost a grown man, and you want everyone to know it. That you're subject to no one, whether that be the law, common decency, or even the people who care about your well-being. Stop me if I'm wrong.
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Qubrick. Stanley Qubrick?His face says it all.
Qubit's not. There's more to it, there always is, but he's so far on the right track that Tetsuo can't find words fast enough to try to lie. As Kaneda'll readily tell anyone, Tetsuo's a shit liar anyway. He's way too direct for it, and his emotions tend to rule him too much.
His life's his own business, right? No one else's. He doesn't have to tell anyone else what's going on; it's between him and Kaneda. Because not only did he want to prove independence, he had to get stronger. Eventually, he's going to round on Kaneda to find out exactly what he knows, but the last time they faced off it didn't go well for him remotely. He can't lose like that again.]
They keep dragging me back here.
[Gee, looking at the horrible, underfed wrecked state he was in then they got him, it's a clear mystery why.]
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All work and no play...]Because they're concerned. You'll note they haven't dragged you to prison.
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[That's all there is to it. He's certain of that much.
... though he's heard something about the government being able to do something about people having powers...]
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Like it or not, your friends are doing you a favor here. What's more, they're sticking their necks out for you. If they're caught harboring you, they'll be in nearly as much trouble as you are.
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He really, really thought nothing through. But he persists anyway, trying to get some agreement on his actions somewhere. ]
I didn't want them to. You think I needed their protection? It's that cow's fault I'm like this!
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You needed to be stopped, Tetsuo. It says something that he stopped you without killing you. Let's say you'd been allowed to go on like that - how long do you really think it would have lasted? Sooner or later, someone would have stepped up to do something about you. Someone who didn't care what happened to you. Or, if you were really unlucky, someone who wanted to pay you back in a way that would last. Eye for eye, tooth for tooth.
[He takes a second to let the imagery sink in, as well as to rein in his temper. When he starts again, he does it in a somewhat lower voice, measured and purposeful.]
What I'm trying to impress upon you is how exceedingly lucky you've been. That kind of luck doesn't last forever. So you need to figure out what it is you're doing next, because you certainly can't keep doing this. Do you understand me?
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Tetsuo glares at him through the entire lecture, eyes slowly widening in both anger and comprehension as he continues on. This isn't want he wants to hear. He can sit here, idle out, pretend to listen to the entire thing and come away with nothing - but Qubit's right. He keeps being right in ways Tetsuo can't ignore.
He doesn't remember a thing between the moments before the impact, and waking up in this bed. Anything could have happened. He'd been completely vulnerable and at their mercy.
Stubborn to the last, Tetsuo looks away again, but the way his lip draws down, head ducking a bit, there's no way he doesn't. He doesn't want to understand it. That doesn't change the fact that he does.]